I have done A LOT of thinking the last few days and have realized that I am the problem. As a single gal I feel as though I am missing out on the joys of coupledom. Specifically having a partner to share the day to day of life. I haven't been in a relationship in almost 5 years. That seems like a very, very long time.
But this post isn't really about my non-existent romantic life. It is about me. Yes, ME! The question I have been pondering is: What do I want? It is a question that I can't answer with certainty. If I can't tell myself what I want, how can I expect to have a relationship with anyone and get what I want or need out of it.
So the problem isn't that I am single. The problem is that I need to figure me out. I need to decide what I want and then go after it. Until, I figure that out it is probably for the best that I don't drag some poor schmuck through the mess that is my head.
Not only do I need to figure out what I want, I need to start seeing myself as the amazing person that I am and love me. Again, if I can't figure out how to do that, how can I expect it of someone else.
Right now I am kind of hyped up on all of this. Feeling positive. I know that I am going slide down back into some negativity but hopefully I can work through it and get to know and love me.