But this post isn't really about my non-existent romantic life. It is about me. Yes, ME! The question I have been pondering is: What do I want? It is a question that I can't answer with certainty. If I can't tell myself what I want, how can I expect to have a relationship with anyone and get what I want or need out of it.
So the problem isn't that I am single. The problem is that I need to figure me out. I need to decide what I want and then go after it. Until, I figure that out it is probably for the best that I don't drag some poor schmuck through the mess that is my head.
Not only do I need to figure out what I want, I need to start seeing myself as the amazing person that I am and love me. Again, if I can't figure out how to do that, how can I expect it of someone else.
Right now I am kind of hyped up on all of this. Feeling positive. I know that I am going slide down back into some negativity but hopefully I can work through it and get to know and love me.
3 comments:
Wise words. I have a friend who says it's not about finding the right person, it's about being the right person. It's really both, but it starts with you.
Let's hear it for thinking positively. I wish I had some pointers for you, but I'm still working on it myself. I like you just the way you are. But here's to a more spritely you.
When we're a Mom, single or not, we tend to pour all of ourselves into others. We feel guilty for thinking about that 'question that must not be asked'- "What do *I* want". So, good for you for getting there! It is so empowering to realize that you CAN control some things and seizing that control builds confidence which is a boon whether you meet a potential mate or not. I am still in the 'seizing' phase myself but I am trying.
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