For my new start tomorrow, I decided to write a list of ten reasons why I want to lose weight. The first two: feel better and look better cover enough ground on their own but are too general. I want to be specific.
10 Reasons to Lose Weight
1- Feel better
2- Look better
3- Not be out of breath walking in from the parking lot at work.
4- Buy cute jeans
5- Make the outside as beautiful as the inside
6- Look amazing in a swimsuit
7- Be healthy
8- No longer feel self conscious about my weight
9- Shop with my sisters and not feel like the "fat" one
10- Get ready for a date and not worry about whether or not the shirt makes me look big.
Numbers four and nine are related. Last Saturday I went to the mall with my two sisters. When you consider weight alone, both of my sisters could almost fit into one of me. I saw a pair of jeans I love but they only go up to a size 13.
Me: When I am smaller I am going to buy these jeans if they still have them.
Sister 2: If I can't find some jeans at such and such place, I am coming back to get these.
She did go back to get the jeans and wore them at the Superbowl party today. I know this shouldn't bother me but it does just a little. I am really tired of not being able to buy clothes that I think are cute only to see my sister wearing them.
Number ten relates to the clothing drama from my date on Friday. The drama wasn't as bad as usual but it was still a worry for a large part of the day. Instead of looking forward to the date, I was trying to decide which outfit would be the most flattering.
Number five is there because I know that no matter how beautiful a person is on the inside, many, many people don't take the time to look past the exterior. I think who I am inside is a beautiful, loving, and fabulous woman (at least I try to remind myself of this) and although I may never think my outside is as beautiful, feeling confident in how I look will help bring out more of the inner beauty.
All in all, I simply want to feel better in every aspect. This is just one.
Now I promise to try not to post about my weight loss woes all of the time but I do appreciate your reading them and your support. Just by posting this I have to be accountable (even if it is only in my own mind) for what I am doing.